Feeling at this moment - 2014/1/8

Boss finally ask me to head the whole marketing team in the company, I start from a small product marketing....Now, I head over 10 marketing and one more marketing team will leaded by me too....total 15 people now..

However, I didn't feel happiness. I even feel very sad tonight. I keep thinking why..............

May be I think I am not capable to handle all of it?
May be I think i am still struggling if I am the right person to handle it?
May be I think I am not able to achieve?
May be I am thinking how to lead the team?

Actually, I have many tiny ideas come up my mind how to improve the company, what is the problems we are facing, etc.. However, I still can't figure the right way to link all the idea together and become a whole plan for company re-org.

I hope my bad mod now is because of struggling how to improve the company instead of questioning myself if I am the suitable person to handle it.

2014/1/8